Current day-- 2007-08-03 (Friday)

So fast almost reach year end.....This is a super fast year 2007. Current job really tiring as compare to HHD job. Age catching up, feel lazy and do not want to move anymore. What I want? I do not have a clue what I want..Am I happy with my current life? Sometime feel bored with my current life but think it over, I feel happy with my life...

Confused right? As I also do not know what I want........Many people even the client also asked me when you getting married? oo....29 is not a young age, time to start a family...Aiyo...how to start a family? Why must have partner then happy? Cannot be single? Why must be tied up a relationship for the sake of culture, just because everyone need a family means I also need to follow?

Stupid day - Friday, kena customer scold and using those Fxxk you, dont give a damn word... Why must be like that? He really do not know how to respect people, or he dont even know the word 'respect'? Feel like want to give back him the word...Ghosh, luckily i did not else I will just be like him, dont I?

Anyway, blog can be a good caused, which is I can release my temper and anger here...Nobody will know what i have go thru except those who will come in and have a peep on the blog, but hard right as last time i write the blog is in 2005..hahaha

I also can express whatever feeling I have....guess im secretive after all, z did said something right on me which i do not easily express my feeling even towards my family members...weird? How come, as if only today I know myself...

13th NOVEMBER 2005........An Important day......what is that?? hehe....is mine birthday

Happy birthday to me X5..Happy birthday to me....yeh yeh...clap clap....

Im having a great time on saturday, as my bunch of friend so so concern over my birthday, im very touch...

Im having 2 session  of birthday with two different bunch of friend in one day...Keng ler...wahaha....oppss..forgotten, on friday my colleagues celebrating with me ler...and this week another bunch of friend going to celebrate with me...yeh yeh....

To be frank, this year is the most happier birthday i had after 27 years..As normal willl be only one bunch of fren celebrate with me n of course with family, but this year is a very meaningful, as a new bunch of friend --> chris, eve, BS, LKT and So is celebrating my birthday for the 1st time and 1st year....n new colleagues...

How can v be so closed? well, i guess this is called fate..

I m tired on saturday , but but very high spirit that night  surprisely ...hehehe....as chris did ask me" Dear you are tired".....actually im a little bit tired, but when the time goes by, i be more awakening ler....so to speak...

Evelyn, thanks for spending your travelling time to come over to KL just for my sake...im really grateful for what you have done.... ...SAD is zing cant spend the time with me, but im still touch as she is the 1st person who send me sms to wish Happy Birthday......ciok song man.....gagaga.......

well.....guess this year birthday is like that,,,,but will always remember in my heart..as i wouldnt knw what will happen to all of us next year.....but i do still hope that everyone of us still around and able to celebrate each other birthday ler...

Friendship Forever........Luv you guys....muaksss.......

Those sad sad days passed by.....previously really damn not happy at all....for the past few weeks I only eat, sleep, shit and work, after come back from work sit at home watching tv which dont know what is actually showing then sleep, dont feel like talking to anyone...just lying in bed....

Very moody and almost felt crying everynite........Those days for me is really is a nightmar and feel like the world is abadoned me, me alone in a cold place, dark and i dont knw the way out to a sunshine place.....You sure will ask me why are you sad about and will ask me to share....well not that i dont want to share, just me myself also don't know what the hell has gone into me ....don't know what is the problem, don't know the solution and also don't know why I so so down and tears just come down without a sign...but im able to go through it, as I promise my friend, i dont want them to worry about me ,ask them to give me some time to solved it myself....which I make it....i able to overcome the fear, dilemma, and the uncertainty i had for the passed few weeks.....glory to GOD..

Well...i guess each of us will go through it as we grow older  ...Yesterday I chat with gege...he said he can sense that i have come out from dark and welcome the brightness..which here i can said, i am, i have try hard to get rid all this unhappiness and try to make myself happy....Thanks for the concern you guys have in me.....